Month: October 2025

From the beginning of time man has tried in every way possible to explain the ways of the world. How did it start where did it begin. We have religious leaders we have science people that study and want to explain it to us as they see it. No one has found the answer. But all have an explanation they are willing and able to share. We have man’s rules and we have Gods rules but none are able to explain how the universe and how God can allow this to happen or that to happen if there is a God why would he allow this or that to take place. Allow me to give just a small input into this.

We have mans rules that are very easy to understand if we jump off a roof we will find that we are about to suffer from basic rules. If you put a gun to your head you will die. You have basic things that are real and they will have an effect if you do not follow those rules. It has nothing to do with God other than he gives you the opportunity of living by mans rules or suffer the natural occurrence. What I am attempting to explain is that everything in our life has a negative and a positive. There are two of each and everything one is mans and we have another and that other one is God. Two rules mans and Gods is this to hard to understand. You cannot live by one you have to live by both. God alone does not teach you that he is the only source of our existence. Religious has one side and man has another but both are right.

The scientist who tell one thing and those that follow God are both right. Neither side is the answer to this question for life to be filled with one or the other will create a diversion that many do not understand.

Like those before me I want to tell as I see it and for me to be wrong is no different that those that say there is no God. Man can live by mans rules and be happy and healthy that is obvious. The grey that comes into the picture is when we find the grey part how do you explain when man has tried and you are expected to die and you don’t now what? I wrote a book called Check Mate which I have not made public but I had over thirty near death experiences and lived what are those odds. God protected me when it was necessary to do so but it was not man that saved me. Maybe once, maybe twice when you are at deaths door and about to die and it does not happen you begin to look deeper into things. They do not teach this is a science class. Perhaps there is more to all of this than we can explain but does that make it less than it is?

Again, as a writer I like to make you look at things and consider we do not know everything. Perhaps you are reading this because you were meant to.

A Messenger,

Verl K.

It is a good thing God came before computers could you imagine what it would be like if computers had came first. Just imagine if it were reversed and you should decide you would like to pray.

After making up one’s mind to pray then you would have to sign in as to who was going to pray. Then it would be ask for your password.

Next question is what is it you want.  And there would be a tab open with a list of things you should answer before continuing.

Then when you pick out the one you want that says you want to pray the next question would be who do you want to pray to. And there would be this long list of people like Moses, Abraham, David, Solomen, Job, Matthew, Mark and the list would eventually have God buried within the list.

The next question is what do you want to pray about and then again you would have a slide down box asking things like do you want something or is this for you are someone else now keep in mind each box would again open to explain that if it were for someone else then you would have to tell who.

After finding God and wanting to thank him that would have been a reboot and you would start over but if all you want is to ask his blessings that would be another choice.

The next question is have you ask for this before and if so when. And you would have to answer more questions.

Now we have established we have God and he is ready to answer our questions the next thing is would you like this answer in writing or verbal. Then what language would you prefer and would you like it texted to you are would an email suffice.

Then you would be warned that there is a waiting list of those before you and the expected time when he will be available. Now would you like to be on this waiting list or would you like to call back. If you say you would like to wait there will be a long pause and the recording will inform you that your time has ran out and you should check back on the next available opening and there will be a list to see when he will be available and if it meets your schedule.

After picking the time the next message will be to inform you that your time has ran out start over.

This is not blasphemy this is what our world has come to.

 

A Messenger,

Verl K.

Seems as I go about my day-by-day chores doing the things that have became a habit to me over the years I pay more attention to others and the way they treat others, which includes their children. I have came to the realization that it is not culture between the American people I was raised with nor the lines drawn between America and Colombia but more the lines that are drawn in ones own individual thinking.  

Parents today want control of the child or the others they come in contact with. When I was in grade school I started to date girls. Yes I was still in the third grade when I would ask a girl to go to the show with me. In those days with one dollar, I could take a girl to the Saturday matinee and after the show we would go to the Arctic Circle for a hamburger and a malt.  The show was fifteen cents and the hamburger was twelve or a hot dog for the same. The malt or ice cream drink was also fifteen cents. So how can I remember this? Sally Peay one of the girls I had taken to the show told me that her father have gave her a dollar to put into her shoe just in case I did not have enough to pay. One dollar for a date was how it all started. Today the girl I would date has to be with her daughter and I can meet with her on Sunday after four if I want to go to dinner with her.  

Fifty years old and still obligated to control the daughter is almost beyond my reasoning. No, I said if I am to meet with her between the hours of this and that I am in the wrong world. I worked ten hours a day not counting the time to service the machine, which usually ended up with me spending twelve hours a day. Then I would drive fifty miles to see Shiela spend time with her then drive back and be up the next day to go to work. Where were my parents in those days? They were living their lives and I was living mine I was allowed time to learn and each morning we would gather around the table to discuss what each of us were doing but I was not instructed as to what I was to do I was allowed to live my life from the time I was in grade school. Now as I watch others they want to control the child be in their lives and live with them. 

Still in grade school I had decided I wanted to fight so I would go down to the highway stick out my thumb and go to Provo from Springville Utah and I was in a gym with an instructor who would teach me boxing and how to do this and that. I had a manager for fighting while still in grade school. Today do you think a parent would allow a child this much freedom. I fought in Salt Lake City at seventeen for the AAU champion Ship of the Westen United States. I weighed 178 lbs. and there was no one in my weight class so I was allowed to fight the unlimited guy who’s last name was White and he was a big black dude weighing in at around 234. He went on to Madison Square Gardens and won the unlimited championship of the United States. Today they would not allow that but I had never lost a fight so my record allowed this. He beat the stuffing out of me but I earned it. Where were my parents I have no idea. I was busy and not concerned with that in those days. Today the child cannot play a game that the parents are right there to encourage them.  

As I look around me today I believe that the biggest difference is control. Parents want to control that child make them into what they wanted to be not allow the child to do as they would. My problem I am told is I am stubborn. Might be that I learned that I had to get what I wanted out of life not wait for instructions so I am stubborn.  

 A Messenger, 

Verl K.

As a young boy I went to grade school in Springville Utah, USA. And during recess I would play marbles. Now to those who know not in America we have or had small round glass things colored very pretty. We learned to flip these between the thumb and the first finger and hit another friends marbles. When placed inside a large ring which we just drew in the dirt we each had to put four of our own marbles into the ring. We would take turns shooting these and we got the marbles that were knocked out of the circle. I was very good at this and when in class they would assign us English to learn and I found I hated that so I would trade one of my friends marbles to do my work. I would then go at recess and get back the marbles. The only thing I was very good at when in school was learning how to avoid anything. By high school I found the subject of English to be worse than going to a dentist. I failed nineth grade English so in the tenth grade I was forced to take two classes in English ninth and tenth. The teachers felt sorry for me and passed the nineth when in the tenth grade. On the eleventh grade I had tenth and eleventh to do and the same thing happened they felt sorry for me and passed the tenth. Bottom line when I got to high school and was taking eleventh and twelve grade English I took a note to school that said, “Please excuse Verl today he is getting married”.  My wife Shiela did all that homework and she passed the tests and I graduated.

Today I do not know a verb from a noun and trying to learn Spanish they keep telling me that I must learn these verbs. How did I ever get here I wonder. God works in many ways because he did not pick me out of an English class or a writing class I was down at the swimming hole more than I was in class. Just the other day I found these girls here in Colombia had never skinny dipped. Swim without clothes, that was amazing to me but a limited viewpoint is a must if one is to keep from learning.

I think why God chose me was because I have so many friends they must have influenced him in some way. I wake up in the mornings and find it hard to not write something somewhere on something. I love to tell stories and I love to read true stories and I especially love those that have a change in heart in the story. I did not come to God by a change in heart I was kind of lead down the road to him. My dad says raising kids is like hearding cows down a roadway with a fence on each side. He said it is not necessary to make the child follow the middle line but you have to be there to guide them back when they get against one of the fences. I have many scares from the fences but I have a very love toward my parents.

A Messenger,

Verl K.

 

 

Life is strange in many ways when I get where I think I have said so much that my friends must be tired of my thoughts is when I receive from you those personal notes those words of encouragement and your desire to hear more. I just returned from the hospital where I have been put through many physical examinations it took two days to perform that and a few more dollars than I would have liked to spend. A colonoscopy being one of the test this afternoon I was put on a treadmill like a mouse and told to be careful. I ask if I am to be careful why am I on this this. Next question was where is the cheese I am to look at. No one in the room had any idea what I was talking about. They told me I had the heart of a 35-year-old man I said yes and the brain not knowing how to understand a woman. They said I am in good shape for a man 82 I did not want to tell them my birth certificate is a forgery for fear they would enter that also. 

If I am to live to be an old man it looks like my heart will be strong enough to feed my body but then if it is so strong why is it so big and strong that I is sometimes short on feeding the brain. They told Emanual that I had no problems anywhere they had checked and the only thing they missed was in my well never mind. Not all parts live and survive as we would like them to. So, my message is that I am as healthy as any 55-years-old man on the face of this planet. I just came off a 5-day diet and had a bowl of soup so now I am ready to go that which I want.  

My enter doctor says Verl you deserve a big, tall Scotch a cigar and forget the rest. Not necessary to tell friends that can read what I am going to say before I say it. I am having much done to my apartment also but it is not finished yet I will have a hummingbird on one wall on Monday and a few more flowers in pots on the brick wall to the left. The object of this room is to instill piece and quite and a restful atmosphere.  

If my vision is as I see it I will have a place to write a place to think and will be able to give to the universe complete concentration. Now down from 318 lbs. to 225 the body is in better shape so thank you for your kind words and stepping in when I needed the support.  

 

A Messenger, 

Verl K.

I am not a preacher nor a preachers son I have only that father with in to guide me. I find myself in a unique situation. The learning curve is that which I live. I gain much wisdom in dwelling on my past trail. Nancy the woman I gave the wedding ring brought it back and ask that I put it into my safe. It was not that she did not want it, it was the fear for her life she could not ware it. On the way home the taxi driver looked at the ring and she felt she would be lucky to get to the house without being robbed. She could not put it in her house for fear they would break and enter and take it and she said she did not want to make payments to me for that ring. Think that one over when one has that kind of respect or responsibility what is to say.

That caused me to look closer at my goals maybe David faced Goliath but I seem to be facing many Goliath’s. Those around me wait like expecting me to be without money and then all will feel secure. I gave over 50,000 dollars away in Costa Rica helping those that I felt needed my support. I have gave to many here in Colombia I felt needed my support. Look at the support that I have derived from my helping. Zero has returned of all that which I gave out no one, not a sole has felt a need to offer.

In the meeting the other day it was told many times they did not want to hear about what was in America we were in Colombia. All in attendance felt the same way. Subject is not open we are different here. Good thinking if one were in Heaven but when you are afraid for you life to show any blessings from God do you not think someone would get the picture. I am not faced with building an airline I am faced with teaching that poverty and starvation are not what God had in mind. I promise that if nothing changes I do not have enough cash to teach these that need to share and learn. I do all I can tell all that will listen but only God can make it understood that which is necessary to find happiness.

 

A Messenger,

Verl K.

 

 As I get older I find life to be full of funnels not tunnels. Friends look at me through a narrow opening and they see a big picture of what should be for my good. The doctors look through a funnel and they look at to the point of physical body. They have the big end and everyone they look at is in the eye of the tube. The attorneys they do the same thing they look from a legal funnel knowing all the problems that I face and they have that narrow end for me to look back to them. God has that same funnel and he allows me to look through it from a spiritual opening. 

When we get in the closet and ask what I would do if I didn’t have all those looking at me from a big opening to the point of my being. If l were to choose rather to die on a operating table looking up at a white mask of someone leaning over me in a white robe or from a judicial robe or a white gown with angels around it. If I were to put aside all others and just take what would be my way to pass on I would be in Los Vegas with a cigar in my mouth not on operating table but on poker table with the most expensive whore in Nevada on my knee and a tall glass of the best scotch whiskey the house has to offer and I would wish to be holding a royal flush.  

If one only looks to this world for answers they would be easy for me. But I have this little thing inside me that tells me I cannot do everything I want. But I do have the chance to do what I think is the right thing and if nothing else but what I speak is to use that to cause me to follow the last trail in this world I chose to follow the light from within not the light others want me to see.  Again, I can only say what I know, not what you expect or want to hear.  

 

A Messenger, 

Verl K.

Dear diary yes, that is how I am beginning to see this article. Even though I know many read as I write in my personal diary that other eyes are reading and finding my very words as I put them to print. I find that with in me is a commitment to God and if it is so then what I have is not any different than others but I have the opportunity of making a fool of my self before the world and others are smart enough to not do this.

After writing the last article I left those that read with the knowledge of my involvement with Nancy. We were to go to the doctors for him to look at my skin and see that all was as it should be. Nancy agreed to go with us then I told her we would then go to the jewelry and pick out a wedding ring. Now I must tell you that we had been together one time alone for dinner I had told about. I had told her I would not push her into anything I would give her tree days to decide. I mean how much time is necessary for one to know. So, I told her this and she said she would go to the doctors but said nothing about the ring. After the doctors she said it was important that we speak on this subject before she would accept the ring. I explained that the ring was my way of telling her my attentions and her acceptance would be hers to me.

Pedro explained to me that any woman would accept a ring regardless of her feelings that this would not be a timely thing for me to do. He called my speedy Gonzales no one does this. But I took Nancy to the jewelry and would you guess the name of the jewelry was “Nancy’s Jewelry”.  And she was also an acquaintance of Pedro’s so upon entering we had Nancy who owns the place come forward and we found a small ring which my woman put on and showed us how pretty it was. No, I said I want a larger stone so after several times she finally brings forth a one carat diamond which she shows us the price and I say that will be good. So, we order the ring and we went back last night and got that ring. She now wears this ring and I have an woman who has said to me if this ring is only what you expect to cause me to go to your bed you can have back the ring. No, I assured he it is my comment to you as I have said and it is you commitment to me period.

She as I believe God has brought her to me and that as long as he is my guide she accepted the ring. She has sense made it plane that this ring is not anything other than that and if I am to be her man I have to follow as God would guide us.

Yesterday we meet with another attorney firm to discuss the purchasing or building a corporation but I introduced Nancy not as another attorney but as my intended. They give me information about Colombia law and what I had in mind cannot be. You cannot build an airline if you can’t pay for it up front. In order to sale stock something you must build it first so those that buy have something they are getting for their money.  I had intended on building the corporation then sale stock to build but that is not possible in Colombia. With my head in my hand, I left the meeting feeling like a dead man walking. Nancy wants to meet with me today to explain that which I did not understand yesterday. Have any of you sat in a meeting where you are in control and have others speak in a language and you have no idea what they are saying. Yes I had help but they were limited poor old Emanual was desperately on his phone finding words that would explain to me what was said. I scolded him for using a phone when I needed his attention. He told me he needed the phone to find those words he knew not. Now I had to slow things down and it was a chess game to say the least.

Now as I write I am amazed why God would put me in such an embarrassing situation. At this point I must admit that I am water way over my head and where I turn or what I do at this point will be either from God or I am distant to failure. As I write this I should know it has been him from the beginning why I should attempt it otherwise.

So here I set on old man in a strange country with limited financing expecting to build an enormous airline.  Just how big was Goliath to David? What I do tomorrow is what I am going to do and to say I pray would be a very understatement.

 

A Messenger,

Verl K.

Elezabeth

When I wrote Elezabeth I did not say what should have finished part of that and maybe there was a reason as is God plan always. I did not say “I gave up my life; I gave my crew which were hand picked by me and everyone told they would be giving there life for this voyage. Not a man refused to serve everyone accepted that which I told them would be a final victory paid for with their lives. Every man went to war with me and stood by my side. We gave the ship as our lives but I gave up to eternity that woman who had as the men did she stood by knowing I would not return.

Now three live times later three countries later I believe in my heart that God has brought that woman to me and as I write this I say thank you God for believing in me.

Now all I have left is to prove to her that God sent her to me as a Gift for my faith and reward for my service.

 

A Messenger,

Verl K.

I find my ambition to write comes according to my thoughts and moods. Today I am reminded of what makes a steak a ten dollar or a hundred-dollar steak. It is the way it is presented. It can be overcooked or undercooked it can be juicy or spicey but the price of that steak us usually and most often the looks as it is presented to you.

I find a woman’s breast to be the same way. How it is presented is what make gives it a value. It can be shared or it can be taken by force. The taste the same? Not in this world you will find the presentation is what makes a man stand in pride. Many things in life I find the same way. Example a friends handshake tells much about that man. The smile of a child will tell much about them. The presentation we give to others is so much the same. It has little to do with the coat he is wearing the pants that he has on it is not how the dress hangs it is how it is presented. Many times, in life we look to the outside and miss the smile the sincerity of the eyes. Ever have someone smile at you and the smile is on the face but it never reached the eyes.

The price of the person is in the presentation of that individual. Yes we all have a price tag hiding away from others but honesty and sincerity are like the presentation of that steak.

How we find that presentation is how we see ourselves and is way before we meet others. My thoughts are for your enter thinking and I share with you that knowledge. Before you can be what you want to present you must find that inside. What you read what you see how you act is from that perspective remember you get back that which you give. You got that somewhere be careful where you load the wagon.

 

A Messenger,

Verl K.